Taking it out

"WHY ARE YOU FUCKING TAKING IT OUT ON ME"

Am I? I don't really have anything to take out, to throw out, to let go.

I probably should have been more sensitive to the stress. But I was just making a suggestion. And I know how much stress there is, thats why I try to suggest something simpler, to persist for the simpler thing to manifest. To reduce the stress.

I did become a little too critical, I'll admit that. I should have just let go and then showed support. But its hard to read people's minds some times. I should have guessed when the defensive words built up. But how was I to know? I don't read people's minds. Had I known, I would have done differently. I do resent personal digs and crticising was nothing different anyway. After all, much criticism has been made previously. But had I know the the stress was that immense and that it was the cause of the reaction, I would have said other things.

And perhaps avoided the explosion that occurred that made me feel absolutely useless and guilty. Like a bystander in the dark who when revealed the location I was ati, found that I was in the wrong place.

I have a MidTerm tomorrow. I need to study.